yesterday i drove away
Being closer to you
Looking at the same stars
Side by side
Gave me the courage to love you with the passion of uncounted nights
When space and time only allowed the sky to connect us
Covers and conversations made us bold enough to find out if we really were there at all
The realization that we existed together for this moment
ended in the knowledge we had to consumate our dream before it ended, so that it would never end
a five minute walk in a world that would at all costs let me know that a happy ending cannot be permitted
The heat from that Texas night had by the time i returned pried all of the warmth i had left with
I crawledin bed, my heart burning away the ice that had frozen my fear
The air I had enhaled in your abscence filled me with worry
So with my fear o nthe prowl and worry weighing my heart
I pulled the future as close to me as I could and began to love it for all it had in store for me
And with every kiss and caress destiny continued
I, a creature of the present tarried too long enjoying every inch of the future
held closer to me then ever
But the future does not wait and the more I saw of it the less worthy I felt of it
This treatable doubt, which only needed time to heal
Became an unforgiveable insult
Trying to be more then enough
Was not enough
It only earned regret
I know longer see the future anymore
and the past visits quite frequently
A lack of faith resulting in resentment
As the night turned to day the idea that I was was lost
Somewhere between the mind and the page I had been corrupted
Feelings were replaced with actions
Imperfection took over where ideas once were
Once the idea was completely forgotten
the reality became unbearable
A dream is only a dream because it is unattainable
If it
is realized it becomes nothing
